February 13, 2006 - Sybille Substitute

Part 1
I’m working as a waiter in a huge banquet hall-type situation. It’s almost as though I’m working for lodging or something. I’m out of my element. There are several large rooms and for some reason I am responsible for table in different rooms. The task becomes overwhelming when I come back into the 1st room to see that the people at one of my tables are completely different. I decide to give up, although I don’t leave the place immediately, but just hang around looking bewildered. One of the other waiters questions me and I explain that I’ve simply given up.



Part 2
I am supposed to go meet Sybille and we are going to get back together. I go to the Sketchy House and go inside. I think the idea is that Sybille is still living there. Initially there is no one at home, so I just walk around looking at things. Although I know that it’s the Sketchy House the set up is a little different and the size of the rooms is way bigger. There are things scattered all over, indicating that someone lives there, but not someone with a lot of things. Like a person who has just moved back from somewhere far away.

A woman comes home, but instead of Sybille it’s someone I’ve never met, a young, beautiful black woman. She seems simultaneously startled that I’m in her house, and somehow savvy to what’s happening, as though she had discussed it with Sybille. A conversation ensues, which I don’t really remember. Soon, however, we are making love on the mattress on the floor. It is very wonderful, and somehow contains the feeling of making love to someone new and to Sybille at the same time, as though this woman was herself and contained Sybille.